Thursday, August 04, 2005
backstabber. betrayer. i was wrong about you. i thought you were someone whom i can trust and i told you everything. and you actually broke my trust. i hate you. now i want you to fcuk up and get out of my life. i don't want to see you. you told me what seems to you the best solution of everything. but have you ever think of my feelings? i think they are not the best solution to the problems. never. they were what seem like crap to me. this is my life. i have the right to control it. i don't need you, who is a joker to me now, to tell me what i should and should not do. my friends. they are my friends. i have the right to hang out with them when i want to and when they want to. what can you do? i just enjoy being with them, hanging out with them. what's the problem? i don't see any. MY LIFE, MY RULES. you want me to hang out with them less, i tried. but now,seeing them just for a while, to you it seems like an offence which is unpardonable. wth.
i just don't know what's the problem with you people. first you lost trust in me for no reason. fine, take it as it is totally my fault. but now why should you guys make me lose trust in you all too? is it worth it? it's not. it only made things worse. now i don't trust you all. not even a single bit. at least that was my point of view. i hate you all. you all made my heart shattered. you all are supposed to be the closest people to me. i am sad... sho sad. somtimes i really feel like breaking down. breaking down and have a good nice cry. but i just can't do it. i don't know why. my heart is already aching and i am really emotional but the tears just can't come out. haix.
other than those few, when can i find other people sho can understand me? i don't know. i just know that reently my life is down and it's really DOWN. thousands of meter under where it's suppose to be? i don't know. i am not happy. but i am still growing i think. at least i think i felt myself growing.
whatever. just want to emphasize; THIS IS MY LIFE, MY RULES. IF YOU DON'T LIKE IT, JUS FCUK UP AND GET OUT. I NEED NO JOKERS IN HERE...
think that's all. had a haircut just now thou. quite nice. not bad. kz. gtg. tata.
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